JieJah's Say...
Don’t be a champion for insecurity and call out structures that are trying to exploit our bodies for personal gain. i love this line the most, “Beauty should be something that is celebrated and something that is enjoyable, not something that people should feel uncomfortable about achieving.” Zooey Deschanel wrote this letter to Vogue when she was 17 - they ended up publishing it.
One of my wish and dream to do something like this in the future . . .
If you were here i think you will support me all the way...Right? -___-**
I miss you Tok Mak...Just few days ago i meet you but i miss you to much this time. Al-Fatihah
"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that,"
Martin Luther King Jr.
JieJah's Say... Al-Fatihah to all victim of the tragedy. Amin.
As I'm waiting for my download of artwork to finish,
My mind start to wonder on few thing happening today,
At times i don't understand why it happen or wondering when shall it happen,
but honestly my mind and my heart is tired. Helplessly especially when me see thing that is not right is happening now, Pressure, yes! Depresses, Yes!...
Deep down you may see smile and laughing but honestly I'm really upset with the current situation, i stay because I'm drive to challenge and the commitment that i have. But after all this happen make me think twice why me staying...We see and wait what will happen.
Allah will show the right path and way,
I still have the faith,
Insyallah.....Amin.
Dear Gf: Thank you for the support, i just need the warmth from you guyz!
Love always.
JieJah's Say...Today the song that accompany me to work is the old school from Prodigy. (This is my best song to play especially buat practise my math) heheeeee! Good old memories. *blush*
I don't know where to start this,
But here goes...for the pass few days ago i really feel stressed especially about work. Only Al-Mighty know how i feel but yesterday is the ultimatum. Honestly, at time i really don't know to express it. This week i really feel my work pile out from hell.
I can stand with a lot of work, but what i can't stand is the misunderstanding or attitudes of some people at my office. At times, when do they things right we been accused as "pembodek" but when we x perform they will pin point without mercy!
Look here, can u see all us are really struggling with daily task. I know its my responsibility to remind and to arrange the task that been requested but we are drowning with daily affairs. But who am i to say this ...end up i keep it inside my heart. Unfortunately it effected me last Friday.
I really feel down and it effected me very much but i learn this lesson very well. Insyallah, i can prove to those people that I'm something! I will prove and make a different. My doa and hope is i will try my best to strive and change for my own benefits. Insyallah...:)
In another aspect, i just wanna share something that i read,
This is my skin.
It keeps out the rain and words I'd rather not hear like "I'm tired" or "I'm fine" or
"We need to talk."
This is my skin and it's thick. This is not your skin. Yet you are still under it.
(I know its not related but that what i feel, while u can care about other, why you don't ask me? am i not important to you, who am i?)
JieJah's Say...sharing my thought and sharing ma LOVE!
I d'ont know where to start or how to start,
I have this messy problem and i think every gal messy closet problem..
I really have this problem now,
I don't know where to dump ma old cloth that either to small and to big now for me.
Any shelter that i give or any recycle center i dump?
JieJah's Say...Peringatan post ini agak gedik! but this is my expression, i don't care :))
I'm really happy when ma LOVED ones HAPPY
there no words to describes it
I'm just elated :)
But on top of that,
i really have this in ma mind..where share i find? honestly i don't know where to start but wish me luck ya!
owh ya...must been wondering what is the item...the jacket and the skirt of course but the ultimatum is this one! Yes!!!!!! the green skirt. Super yummmmmmmy!!!
:)) *so tell me again am i crazy? ....ya me so**hahahaaa!
I have great lunch with ma gurlfren's today, many thing we discussed from man, to work and to relationship. Its like a catch-up moments for me. Thanks gurls i realized i really need that session too. At this point of time honestly i have few major dateline, incoming appointments, discussion and little presentation.
I quoted what she said you need to know WHAT you Wants.
In relationship basically you need to know WHAT you Need. This is logical in many way, we can live without things that we Want and we can't live without things that we Need. Correct me if I'm wrong, You could live without the person that you need from your GOD, Loved ones, Friends and Family but u can leave without person that is less important to you like your old colleagues, scandal and etc (Please note this is only example).
Jiejah say's:
“This life…is what you make it. No matter what you are going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is, you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - They’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, i hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up; because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole. And that goes for everything; Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself. Because if you don’t, then who will sweetie? So. Keep your head high. Keep your chin up. And most importantly, keep smiling. Because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.”
My head is really painful today.. some how this song is singing in ma head.
Many thing happen today..
May Al- Mighty give me the strength to keep ma head up and spirit high.
Maybe all this happen for a reason and maybe this what me deserve.
The after math event yesterday have effected me that much... why? My head is really painful with massive headache and ma body not in good mood..My pray is to ma mum...
Maybe me will find alternative.... Sorry ma me still in perfect in many way but me will try to give my best!
Insyallah!!
If you wondering why i'm writing this my answer is i don't know
Please note this is an expression whats in my heart and in my mind now...If you saw or bump to me please don't ask in details as i mention as above and this blog its a therapy to my heart and my mind..
Am i ready to do this?
To be able to hold and responsible to a huge responsibility?
To be able to forgive to people that hurt or rude to myself and my family?
To be selfish and stand for myself when a person irresponsible or bloody rude to me?
To be able and to have a financial stability or freedom to own ma own property in the future?
To be able to provide the BEST for my family especially to Ma MUM and BAK especially when they are not like they used too or they really sick?
To become the best daughter for ma parents and best sister to my twin brother?
To be the best employee and became the best what I'm good with?
To be able to be me in the same time?
To be able to be a lover and a good wife near future
Note:
Don't get me in the wrong direction,
I asked myself all of this question make me wonder
All this question appear due to many things happen surrounding me, I admit that i'm not perfect but all i know i will do my best to become the BEST of me..
If you read this, Please pray for me... Sesungguhnya that is the best medicine for me which in the same time make me strong and sane in ma insanity world.
Selamat malam dunia
terima kasih...Kerna sudi membaca
Aku hanya ingin berbicara
terima kasih...Kerna sudi mendengar suara jiwa saya..
JieJah's Say...
I feel really - really lazy.
I really feel ma self in the song
Yes, i have many things to be done especially the post-event discussion its today
This Bulat Face need to Improve MORE and IN FAST MODE!!
Please Pray for me!!
Many Positive and i do have a negative feedback too..
with the Gloomy day outside make me sleepy..
Many things in ma head in ma heart
Things make me feels really heavy
things make me feels so sad and angry
I really hope thing will get better and May Al-Mighty can be more to myside to give the positive feedback. Insyallah.. Amin!
the silence between two people who have nothing to say to each other.
The perfect silence:
the silence between two people who have a million things to say to each other,
but choose not to do it at that moment, because they know they will have a million other opportunities to say them, because they are going to be in each others life’s forever. Usually you walk away from the perfect silence feeling like you just had the best conversation ever.
Today,
i feel really down
im down with the situation that i'm facing right now
why is so hard to get what we really desire
like my situation now,
we already buy the ticket to go watch life show
end up now i have to work
so i decided to let go my tickets
and off me go to my company event
if you ask what i feel now
i feel this is this suck
but if you ask me why i do that
because i need to support my boss and ma company that im working right now
as malay proverb "bukan rezeki saya,"
i need to absorb this...
maybe to you out there this is a small thing
but to me this is something that i really anticipating it
especially afdlin live (With a huge sigh...)
I'm not in the mood to be good today
i don't have any mercy to spare
cz today I'm not myself today
.....
JieJah's Say...
any Jokers to make me smile today
any nice people wanna give me hug today..?
I wanna to escape today
(I'm a bad gurl today)
