31# ... Dreamland

This weekend is full of good memories and well capture picture to keep in our memoir for future to come, Just wanna share some pic of me and mon petite, we are on learning phase, hence i hope More picture to come... ;))

This is some of the picture that i really like ..as ma eyes cant sleep, missing someone i guess, hope this will take me to dreamland i guess.

Love the view **

yes, again me from ma back side, and him facing the lake ;)

Location: Lakeview, Putrajaya.
Gadget: Both Lumix's
Photographer: Me and Mon petite.

30#... change or unchanged?

Many people say i have changed,

Funny part is the closed once also sometime didn't see or aware of this. It amazed me when a person whom saw the changes and somehow it make you feels good or elated in the same time. weird huh?

Time have grew me i guess, this week have given me many perceptive in many way..from friendship, family, relationship and work environment. Some how i sense many things are changing, as if they care how a person will feel?

One thing for sure,

Human will always remember the wrong doing or word hurt their emotion, then came a long the white lie that tries to cover the track which i simply not agree at all. Either way, somehow people does not care anymore as it should be back in old day, more into what's in for them or self important compare to what i can contributes to my company and etc. Another thing that people always hear is the gossip... wth** i guess this person have free times to that....compared to some people.

The sad thing is you only notice someone changing, but have you ever thought that you had changed as well.. more emotionless transmit to air we breath, to whom we spoke too, to object that we desire and to the person that we care..More movie try to convey all this but i guess its useless somehow as the human or people that watch can't translate the message behind the movie...

As i mention on the previous post, assumption can kill. To me from a existing friendship nor feeling.. i do think words plays the major roles, if we miss used it the consequences will be disaster.. Many words of good advice or words that comfort me lead me to this "if that thing had been signed by al-mighty for me,  whether sooner or later with the greatness Insyaallah it will be mine," i believe in this.. esp with the bless of our parents and the loved ones.. As tomorrow, remark a new beginning for step's in the future..

As for ma heart, i will learn to be more stronger and will be a better person as i mention in ma dream post

Amin..

tiada sapa yang lebih tahu, 

hanya aku yang lebih tahu,

untuk aku ini hanya harapanku,

pada kamu itu hanya omonganku,

aku hanya pandangan sepi buatmu,

mainan kamu dalam duniawi,

hati yang pedih kamu pandang sepi,

dibawa lari sepi yang menanti,

hati-hati nanti ia membawa diri,

dari mengharap kasih yang tidak bertepi,

hanya yang pasti tuhan lebih mengetahui....

"hey this is ma 2 cents"...atau coretan ku

29#...Impian saya

Tagged by Hanin

I'm a dreamer and always push ma self to achieve the best especially for future. There some dream just not meant for me, that part i have Redha, Life have to go on and i will continue my journey..Insyallah, with the hard work, with the twist of doa and many love i received ...May ma wish will come TRUE. Amin...

5 Impian saya 3-5 tahun dari sekarang,

• I want to have my own kid (kawen pun belum da berangan nak budak)** xpe..this is my dream
  
  
• I hope that i have step up to a higher level in career wise, more mature**, more secure financially,  better ride (wah!), of course this also include ma mon petite as well, and etc
  
  
• I want to have my own Mi Casa (Rumah Sendiri) ;))
  
  
• I want to perform Umrah *Insyallah
  
  
• A professional DSLR Camera and professional Class hehehe*

5 Impian saya untuk tahun ini..

• A great escapade vacation with the sound of click! click! ~~
  
  
• Improve ma cooking skill now me more to eastern hope more skill yang boleh di kidnap dari mommy saya* esp her rendang and her sambal ikan bilis yum!yum!
  
  
• To be more patient this year compared before, the best daughter for my famile , the best girlfren @ future wifey for ma mon petite ami, good and quality worker and a good FRIEND..
  
  
• Have more contact for Automotive Industries and more knowledge about car, in the same time i want to go to all motorsport event **hehehee gilos
  
  
• I want to go to LIVE concert this year...and a another dream that Mon Petite knows about it. Insyallah... 

I want to tag

• sha and fahmee
• to whom that read my blog as well you're welcome.

#28... Life

As the time show its 8.03pm im still in the office, somehow i know its not right but ton's of works need to be done. This two week, its a mess...totally. With the new management is in, many thing's need to resolved. Now i realized how hard to be in this position, hey *somehow ma title* does not represent what i do or ma task here in the company.

This two week among the highlight that i can share is

- realized been appreciated

- somehow truth is better  unspoken

- assumption can kill you

- realized who i am now...mature i guess*

- training (non stop) haiya -__-**

- meeting to set sop

- new task and responsibility

As ma petite always say's to me I'm too good or Malay say's Baik x bertempat..(which somehow i don't realized) ,which can lead people just take the advantages nor step on me. This is the truth..i don't know if you read this but i always been there when u need me the most, (not to mengungkit) but you always give this remarks to me somehow its a joke to you but deep down i truly hurt. As i accepted you as who you are this what i get ( It make me realized whom i am to you), and being smarter you shouldn't do that! why you don't contact me? yes, i got plans...so what? just don't make any assumption its really hits me and all the accusation that you throw make me really piss. I do hope you do look back and think back what had been done, from there you will realized. That is ma DOA to you.

If im the bad bitch now, i should do something that i always do before but....i don't because i know who you are and in my heart you're some one that i called friend. Hey! by this time i think you wouldn't call me that *huhuhu*... let time will tell then.

To me now all this happen its from GOD willing, this is my two cent's i guess.
Thank you for the support and word! i feel LOVED! Muahx...

...27# Alhamdulillah

I'm elated,happy, mixed feeling! in the same time ...g bersyukur sangat. just about i given up for this thing..Al-mighty had send me an Angel. A small and cute one! Thank you its only word that i have to present to you.
From bottom of my heart Thank you again.. <3

26# . . . you been missed

First of all,
i want to say that I'm sorry..
sorry if you feel I'm no good to you
sorry if you that I'm neglecting you...

But one thing for sure that i want you to know is I love you!

Tonight and many other night,
I realized that I'm lost in another world again,
world there is no longer you in.

No more late nite chit chat
No more late dinner
No more partner beside me
No more smelly feet **sigh**

No more huggie when I'm down..

Ma heart try to ignore the emotional roller coaster played all day long
but the more i ignore the more closer you are to me..Only a month since you been gone...i still missed you.... 

P.s: I just watch "How to Train Your Dragon" make me more missing you ;..(

25# ...If part 2,Expression

If there is a thousand would you understand what i feel and care enough to go thru with me.As the words start to ponder i realized many thing happen past few week, less word nor expression coming from the soul.If there a huge a secret, would you want to share it with me? Honestly, i doubt it because the world become to selfish and hypocrite as in many hidden agenda standing behind it.As many true nor story only been told, to me it had grow me and hurt me in the same time.Strange how emotion can adapt with it surrounding now. ....*small voice whisper, calm heart calm*

I don't think people surrounding or the environment will realized this as well because they seem too busy with they own life.It did hurt me when i try to give my best it seem it never been care, not even one word to say how much the person appreciate it..truly its life. Stranger nor unknown people came from no where realized all of the changes and care enough to spare their time to ask. Honestly I'm tired all this game or unfair trail, would it be easy when you get you deserve.In my world none of that is existed. As ordinary it should be it always back fire me and those harsh word will accompany me to sleep. May be its time to let the faith give the answer as for this time i couldn't see it.

As for now, I'm in empty picture frame that yet to be determine..