Thursday, April 29, 2010

#52.. Song keep on playing on ma head and sing out loud!

"Look After You"- The Fray

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you, won't you be the one I always know?
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh

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"Everything You Want" -Vertical Horizon



Somewhere there's speaking

It's already coming in

Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind

You never could get it

Unless you were fed it

Now you're here and you don't know why



But under skinned knees and the skid marks

Past the places where you used to learn

You howl and listen

Listen and wait for the

Echoes of angels who won't return



[Chorus]

He's everything you want

He's everything you need

He's everything inside of you

That you wish you could be

He says all the right things

At exactly the right time

But he means nothing to you

And you don't know why



You're waiting for someone

To put you together

You're waiting for someone to push you away

There's always another wound to discover

There's always something more you wish he'd say



[Chorus]



But you'll just sit tight

And watch it unwind

It's only what you're asking for

And you'll be just fine

With all of your time

It's only what you're waiting for



Out of the island

Into the highway

Past the places where you might have turned

You never did notice

But you still hide away

The anger of angels who won't return



[Chorus]

I am everything you want

I am everything you need

I am everything inside of you

That you wish you could be

I say all the right things

At exactly the right time

But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

And I don't know why

Why

I don't know

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**And now i wish i complete this.. :D
Gurl's with instrument are hot rite? but mine i guess with the scaf version
LOL! .........

#51... Life

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

#50.. You know ma name but You don't know my story

I have to submit this report that needs to be send today,
I have stupid colleague, who always delays ma task,
I have tons of paper on ma table, make me really annoying,
I have no energy to continue, ...............
I force myself to do all this, make sure to finish it by today,
I didn't eat anything today, ma appetite been taken rapidly,
I been left alone at ma place, no surprise to me,
I have few pins at ma pants due of too loose for me,
I can't hear well, maybe it's disadvantages of earphone,
I have no word, due to many surprises in days,
I felt alone, nobody seems to care,
I love Monday and Wednesday, but today its seem so plain..
I feel sick,but it doesn't change anything.........
I been scolded by ma dad without any valid reason, make me sad n confused..

I can't feel anything now, I'm Numb!
So tell me now do you know me?...

49#... Zodiak

This was very interesting…came across it today! I had no clue that the Native Americans followed a different set of Zodiac symbols and meanings…mine is still pretty much spot on. How do you compare?



Otter: Jan 20 - Feb 18

A little quirky, and unorthodox, the Otter is a hard one to figure sometimes. Perceived as unconventional, the Otter methods aren’t the first ones chosen to get the job done. This is a big mistake on the part of others – because although unconventional, the Otter’s methods are usually quite effective. Yes, the Otter has unusual way of looking at things, but he/she is equipped with a brilliant imagination and intelligence, allowing him/her an edge over every one else. Often very perceptive and intuitive, the Otter makes a very good friend, and can be very attentive. In a nurturing environment the Otter is sensitive, sympathetic, courageous, and honest. Left to his/her own devices, the Otter can be unscrupulous, lewd, rebellious, and isolated.


Wolf: Feb 19 – Mar 20

Deeply emotional, and wholly passionate, the Wolf is the lover of the zodiac in both the physical and philosophical sense of the word. The Wolf understands that all we need is love, and is fully capable of providing it. Juxtaposed with his/her fierce independence – this Native American animal symbol is a bit of a contradiction in terms. Needing his/her freedom, yet still being quite gentle and compassionate – we get the picture of the “lone wolf” with this sign. In a nurturing environment the Wolf is intensely passionate, generous, deeply affectionate, and gentle. Left to his/her own devices the Wolf can become impractical, recalcitrant, obsessive, and vindictive.


Falcon: Mar 21 – Apr 19

A natural born leader, the Falcon can always be looked upon for clear judgment in sticky situations. Furthermore, the characteristics for this Native American animal symbol never wastes time, rather he/she strikes while the iron is hot, and takes action in what must be done. Ever persistent, and always taking the initiative, the Falcon is a gem of a personality to have for projects or team sports. The Falcon can be a little on the conceited side – but he/she is usually right in his/her opinions – so a little arrogance is understood. In a supportive environmental the Falcon “soars” in his/her ability to maintain passion and fire in relationships, and always remaining compassionate. Left to his/her own devices, the Falcon can be vain, rude, intolerant, impatient, and over-sensitive.


Beaver: Apr 20 – May 20

Take charge, adapt, overcome – this is the Beaver motto. Mostly business, the Beaver is gets the job at hand done with maximum efficiency and aplomb. Strategic, and cunning the Beaver is a force to be reckoned with in matters of business and combat. One might also think twice about engaging the Beaver in a match of wits – as his/her mental acuity is razor sharp. The Beaver has everything going for him/her – however tendencies toward “my way or the highway” get them in trouble. Yes, they are usually right, but the bearer of this Native American animal symbol may need to work on tact. In a nurturing environment the Beaver can be compassionate, generous, helpful, and loyal. Left to his/her own devices the Beaver can be nervous, cowardly, possessive, arrogant, and over-demanding.


Deer: May 21 – Jun 20

This Native American animal symbol is the muse of the zodiac. The Deer is inspiring lively and quick-witted. With a tailor-made humor, the Deer has a tendency to get a laugh out of anyone. Excellent ability for vocalizing, the Deer is a consummate conversationalist. This combined with his/her natural intelligence make the Deer a must-have guest at dinner parties. Always aware of his/her surroundings, and even more aware of his/her appearance, the Deer can be a bit self-involved. However, the Deer’s narcissism is overlooked because of his/her congeniality and affability. In a supportive environment the Deer’s natural liveliness and sparkly personality radiate even more. He/she is an inspiring force in any nurturing relationship. Left to his/her own devices the Deer can be selfish, moody, impatient, lazy, and two-faced.


Woodpecker: Jun 21 – Jul 21

Woodpeckers are usually the most nuturing of all the Native American animal symbols. The consummate listener, totally empathic and understanding, the Woodpecker is the one to have on your side when you need support. Of course, they make wonderful parents, and equally wonderful friends and partners. Another proverbial feather in the Woodpeckers cap is the tendency to be naturally frugal, resourceful, and organized. In a nurturing environment the Woodpecker is of course caring, devoted, and very romantic. Left to his/her own devices the Woodpecker can be possessive, angry, jealous, and spiteful.


Salmon: Jul 22 – Aug 21

Electric, focused, intuitive, and wholly creative, the Salmon is a real live-wire. His/her energy is palpable. A natural motivator, the Salmon’s confidence and enthusiasm is easily infectious. Soon, everybody is onboard with the Salmon – even if the idea seems too hair-brained to work. Generous, intelligent, and intuitive, it’s no wonder why the Salmon has no shortage of friends. This Native American animal symbol expresses a need for purpose and goals, and has no trouble finding volunteers for his/her personal crusades. In a supportive environment, the Salmon is stable, calm, sensual, and giving. Left to his/her own devices, those that bear this Native American animal symbol can be egotistical, vulgar, and intolerant of others.


Bear: Aug 22 – Sep 21

Pragmatic, and methodical the Bear is the one to call when a steady hand is needed. The Bear’s practicality and level-headedness makes him/her an excellent business partner. Usually the voice of reason in most scenarios, the Bear is a good balance for Owls. The Bear is also gifted with an enormous heart, and a penchant for generosity. However, one might not know it as the Bear tends to be very modest, and a bit shy. In a loving environment this Native American animal symbol showers love and generosity in return. Further, the Bear has a capacity for patience and temperance, which makes him/her excellent teachers and mentors. Left to his/her own devices the bear can be skeptical, sloth, small-minded and reclusive.


Crow/Raven: Sep 22 – Oct 22

Highly enthusiastic, and a natural entrepreneur, the Crow is quite a charmer. But he/she doesn’t have to work at being charming – it comes easily. Everyone recognizes the Crow’s easy energy, and everyone turns to the Crow for his/her ideas and opinions. This is because the Crow is both idealistic and diplomatic and is quite ingenious. In nurturing environments this Native American animal symbol is easy-going, can be romantic, and soft-spoken. Further, the crow can be quite patient, and intuitive in relationships. Left to his/her own devices, the Crow can be demanding, inconsistent, vindictive, and abrasive. Learn more about Native American lore surrounding the Raven here on my blog post.


Snake/Serpent: Oct 23 – Nov 22

Most shamans are born under this Native American animal symbol. The Snake is a natural in all matters of spirit. Easily attuned to the ethereal realm the Snake makes an excellent spiritual leader. Also respected for his/her healing capacities, the Snake also excels in medical professions. The Snake’s preoccupation with matters intangible often lead others to view them as mysterious, and sometimes frightening. True, the Snake can be secretive, and a bit dark – he/she is also quite sensitive, and caring. In a supportive relationship the cool Snake can be passionate, inspiring, humorous, and helpful. Left to his/her own devices, the Snake can be despondent, violent, and prone to abnormal mood swings.


Owl: Nov 23 – Dec 21

Changeable and mutable as the wind, the Owl is a tough one to pin down. Warm, natural, with an easy-going nature, the Owl is friend to the world. The bearer of this Native American animal symbol is notorious for engaging in life at full speed, and whole-hearted loves adventure. This can be to his/her detriment as the Owl can be reckless, careless, and thoughtless. Owls make great artists, teachers, and conservationists. However, due to his/her adaptability and versatility – the Owl would likely excel in any occupation. In a supportive, nurturing environment the Owl is sensitive, enthusiastic, and an attentive listener. Left to his/her own devices, the Owl can be excessive, overindulgent, bitter, and belligerent.


Goose: Dec 22 – Jan 19

If you want something done – give it to the Goose. Persevering, dogged, and ambitious to a fault, the Goose sets goals for accomplishment, and always obtains them. The goose is determined to succeed at all cost – not for the approval of other – but those with this Native American animal symbol competes with his/her own internal foe. Driven is the watchword for the Goose’s dominating personality trait – which makes them excellent in business and competitive sports. When tempered with supportive, nurturing family and friends, the Goose excels in all things he/she attempts. In a loving environment the Goose can be very passionate, humorous, gregarious, and even sensual. However, lead to his/her own devises, the Goose may fall into obsessive or addictive behaviors that will inevitably be his/her demise.

#48... Pain

As im waiting for document to scanned,
Im stumble..
I have no word

My thought lying on last night,
Naive in every thought,
Till now the word keep on lying,
Too silent as the moon watching,
No words....

Much diffrent.Now Im Numb...
To the other you,
I say thank you.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

#47...Plain Words - Live everyday likes it's your First

Take chances.

Tell the truth.

Date someone totally wrong for you.

Say no.

Spend all your cash!

Fall in love.

Get to know someone random.

Be random.

Say I love you.

Sing out loud.

Laugh at a stupid joke.

Cry.

Get revenge.

Apologize.

Tell someone how much they mean to you.

Tell the asshole what you feel.

Let someone know what they’re missing.

Laugh til your stomach hurts.

#45..Addict

#44... Plain Words and Picture

The most selfish 1 letter word:

1. Avoid it. The most satisfying
2. letter word: We. Use it. The most poisonous
3. letter word: Ego. Kill it. The most used
4. letter word: Love. Value it. The most pleasing
5. letter word: Smile. Keep it. The fastest spreading
6. letter word: Rumour. Ignore it. The hardest working
7. letter word: Success. Achieve it. The most enviable
8. letter word: Jealousy. Distance it. The most powerful
9. letter word: Knowledge. Acquire it. The most essential
10. letter word: Confidence. Trust it

**nice and kinda true..right?
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About Money:

With money, you can buy a house, but not a home.
With money, you can buy a clock, but not time.
With money, you can buy a bed, but not sleep.
With money, you can buy a book, but not knowledge.
With money, you can see a doctor, but not good health.
With money, you can buy a position, but not respect.
With money, you can buy blood, but not life.
With money, you can buy sex, but not love.

**nice and kinda true..right?....
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But after reading this i'm smiling to myself -__-** (people will think me giler)
 Its o.k, the reason was after i read the quotes....

“There is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that’s thrown at them. We aren’t made that way. In fact, we’re made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. We aren’t supposed to be able to handle everything. But that’s what makes us stronger in the end, by learning from the things that hurt us most.” simply beautiful!  

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I think this among the best ones...

Dear Anyone with Low Self Esteem,

You’re positively beautiful.
I love your freckles on your nose, they bring out the colors in your eyes.
Your hair frames your face perfectly.
Your laugh is contagious and you will always make me smile.
Those scars on your knees? They show me that you’ve fallen.
That sparkle in your eyes when you smile? They show me you picked yourself up. Your smile is drop dead gorgeous, wear it more often.
Who gives a shit if you have acne?
Who cares if you’re overweight or underweight, tall or short, tan or pale, an A cup or a D cup?
All that matters is that someone thinks you’re beautiful just the way you are and that someone is me.

I wish you could love yourself the way I love you, the way your family loves you, the way your friends love you.

*me head over heels**
P/s: May i know yer name? Ma name is Jiejah
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So true? me just being the ordinary Jiejah..
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#43... Another Day in the Office

To this person,
I personally dedicated this post to you!

Honestly, u're CHICKEN..i send the email twice and its such a simple task that you can't answer. To bad if you don't have the GUTS to reply ma email. Hey, that too bad. To cut story cut, i suggest you need to recheck or revaluate your self!

To reply my question in ma email pun you have to call my boss to ask a favor that is really funny. LAME & STUPID! Just now u still acting as if you know everything (Cz its infront of yer boss)..PiiraHHH!
Save it to the manual book!

To me u are just another Gedik fall in the wrong fantasy island!
- p/s if im not who im not for sure you kena sembur with me BUT knowing the WHO you're i turn back and smile ;) and  say's you're just not worth it!

Friday, April 23, 2010

# 42... Attitudes

As much today is the last day of the week for me, as many nice and elated thing happen in the morning turn to SHIITE start after LUNCH (which i skip to finish up tons of work). Ops..! -___-

A special Thank you note to the big orange hollow b***h, irritating like only god knows! As for now, i don't have any special name for you yet. Look if you so in desperate wants to prove to your boss that you're The best Employee soo..GO ON!
Please be my guest, I don't care because its not under my job scope anyway. Honestly, I pity you because you look so desperate to show to others that you're capable or accountable. Look genius, this is a fact weather you realized this or NOT.. THEY are really smart ASS lar..No matter how hard you try they will eye and ears. Such a poor gurl. Hey, i know you you don't like me, its o.k but your childish way to handle an internal or a small issue make me don't respect you! Such unprofessional..**ckp pandai tp biler tanya balik, lain yang di tanya lain di jawab** me -__-*


Sorry, this is my honest opinion and you need to grow up, be more professional and hope that realized before its too late, which you already *kertu* than me.(which i doubt it)

On the other hand, GO ON with your hiding agenda...as much more changes that I notice. I guess i kinda understand why that person had to do *that* to you. Hope you will realized soon as this can harm on others emotion as well. Heartless emotion!

This is we called life huh?**
Make me thing twice and re-planning what i already plan. -__-#**

Spontaneous weekend this week? i guess not now.
*Sorry ya para pembaca, ada typo error td! tp suda dibetulkan..**

#41...Jokes "Funny Divorce Letter :D"

Dear wife,

I’m writing you this letter to tell you that I’m leaving you forever. I’ve been a good man to you for 7 years & I have nothing to show for it.

These last 2 weeks have been hell.

Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today & that was the last straw. Last week, you came home & didn’t even notice I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal & even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You ate in 2 minutes, & went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don’t tell me you love me anymore; you don’t want sex or anything that connects us as husband & wife. Either you’re cheating on me or you don’t love me anymore; whatever the case, I’m gone.

Your EX-Husband

P.S. don’t try to find me. Your SISTER & I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!

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Dear Ex-Husband,

Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter.

It’s true you & I have been married for 7 years, although a good man is a far cry from what you’ve been. I watch my soaps so much because they drown out your constant whining & griping Too bad that doesn’t work. I DID notice when you got a hair cut last week, but the 1st thing that came to mind was ‘You look just like a girl!’ Since my mother raised me not to say anything if you can’t say something nice, I didn’t comment. And when you cooked my favorite meal, you must have gotten me confused with MY SISTER, because I stopped eating pork 7 years ago. About those new silk boxers: I turned away from you because the $49.99 price tag was still on them, & I prayed it was a coincidence that my sister had just borrowed $50 from me that morning.


After all of this, I still loved you & felt we could work it out. So when I hit the lotto for 10 million dollars, I quit my job & bought us 2 tickets to Jamaica But when I got home you were gone.. Everything happens for a reason, I guess.


I hope you have the fulfilling life you always wanted. My lawyer said that the letter you wrote ensures you won’t get a dime from me.

So take care.

Signed,

Your Ex-Wife, Rich As Hell & Free!

P.S. I don’t know if I ever told you this, but my sister Carla was born Carl.

I hope that’s not a problem.


LOL!!!! :D

#40...Changes

Been thinking to change my blog name to the previous blog that i used to have with friendster.


And as you guys see now its rename as Ordinary Jiejah.

The description also i change as time and space give me many inspiration...*giggle*

Today,

I sense a different twist, approach, mistakes...

Guess..its life than right? Perfect cheecky friday..me elated, especially with this cute surprises.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

39# Force of nature click! Click!


After reading few blog, i felt full w'out eating ma lunch.
I don't wanna to spoilt ma mood, and i start to google..

I found this picture,
Al great Al-Mighty, beristigfar panjang saya.
Thought of sharing this cool pic..





#38...Kinky Thursday!





I don't know why, today much diffrent feeling..
Taking ma own grand time to finish my task *ketawa nakal*
The black thing always make me wants to click click!!! *nakal*
Another part of me thinkg of ........him
others thing that make ma day kinky as me like it!


#37... expectations vs. reality

just. cant. get. enough.........500 days of summer

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

#36...Words

Its just caught ma attention after unnormal wednesday i supposed.

I’m not interested in who you are as a person when you’re rockin’. I’m interested in who you are when you’re not.

John Mayer..

A part of that came across with fella yang hensem..Catman? LOL!


P/s: Silent huh?

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

#35... Begin and End

It just a habite and me realized,
Before i closed my eyes,

I tend to reminiscence of what i did the whole day.

*Strange is..

I will start to think and make some figuring,forgiving and etc
I will pray, and makes me believe weather if today or tomorrow will end with good day nor bad. I will hold this, how bad or good our life situation, famile, love, friends..we're the one whom responsible to work it out..

34#... Turn's off!

Few days ago i feel empty,
strange feeling,
but life treat me great and im HAPPY!
and honestly i hate this stupid feeling and want it to go away!

At some point,
I ask myself this..Is it worth it?
Am i strong to go thru this again
or just ignore the simple truth that its not worth it!

My mind think's
The pro and the cons of this situation
and decided to let the time and faith answer it for me.
Lame answer will be, but .....no one have the answer
It seems no fairy tale end for me.

I guess this is the life that every person
have to go thru,
a journey as a person.

May Al-mighty bless us in very way,
Amin.

Friday, April 16, 2010

#33... Walking Away

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life

I'm walking away oh to find a better day

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life

I'm walking away oh to find a better day

I'm walking away


sometimes some people get me wrong

when it's something I've said or done

sometimes you feel there is no fun

that's why you turn and run

but now I truly realise

some people don't wanna compromise

well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies

and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights

not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady


I'm walking away from the troubles in my life

I'm walking away oh to find a better day

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life

I'm walking away oh to find a better day

I'm walking away



Well I'm so tired baby

things you say you're driving me away

whispers in the powder room baby

don't listen to the games they play

girl I thought you'd realise

I'm not like them other guys

coz I saw them with my own eyes

you should've been more wise

and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights

not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady



I'm walking away from the troubles in my life

I'm walking away oh to find a better day

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life

I'm walking away oh to find a better day

I'm walking away ...

Some thing's better left unsaid. and move on...

#32...Attitudes

This week i notice there another trend come around from no where,
I came across with many childish attitudes that came from well grown man or woman..as there are a part of parasite that try to pull you down. -_-" Ish!

~ i think this people never feel, thinks or other words is SYUKUR or BLESSED for what they have. Always have a green eye (envy) for other people gifted or capability. Always prefer the shortcut (bodek) and escape just like that. Meanwhile people like US with stuck with the stupid SOP's and BERAT SEBELAH from certain people make it more harder sometime.

Oh..how i can forget,
Some people just loves to act very Strangely and like to act likes knows everything but when we ask such a simple question the end result its just disappointing and illogical. This is what i have to deal almost everyday now and this particular person will drive me nuts especially when advising on something related to ma daily task that will end up in dark hole. Scary? tell me about it! Now, usually i will double check with the management before proceeding her request or procedures, and this will drive her crazy. *ketawa nakal*

......At this point honestly i just don't care, I'm moving on with parts and pieces that i need to combine now. i been given many task as people seems will not understand, so be it! I will grow with the responsibility and survive this.

Hence,I know you don't like coz to you I'm a threat..Up to you to judge it coz i just doing my task and wants to delivered it up to what ma boss want's it. If that you think is a treat i think you need to go to rehab. My Advice to you is, Never under estimated other people capability and talk bad behind the person (Mengumpat), one fine day that will bring you down..

hey, this is ma 2 cents..its either you can accept or can't..
let time become the Judge.

p/s: To another notes, I don't know whats words or say's that being spread on air but putting yourself (as adult) on only one side of the story its unfair right?... OR  Its ok then, each day I'm realizing whom i am, As your stories makes another chapter i guess it will like before i guess. I hope and pray for your happiness. Amin.
Thank you for giving me this experience...
I do believe the karma,You can hurt me more with your assumption, But i will grew with the situation. Insyallah. May Al-mighty show's whose right and wrong. Amin.
Till then, I'm just a stranger in your life with your hurtful word.

Monday, April 12, 2010

31# ... Dreamland

This weekend is full of good memories and well capture picture to keep in our memoir for future to come, Just wanna share some pic of me and mon petite, we are on learning phase, hence i hope More picture to come... ;))



This is some of the picture that i really like ..as ma eyes cant sleep, missing someone i guess, hope this will take me to dreamland i guess.




Love the view **




yes, again me from ma back side, and him facing the lake ;)












Location: Lakeview, Putrajaya.
Gadget: Both Lumix's
Photographer: Me and Mon petite.

30#... change or unchanged?


Many people say i have changed,
Funny part is the closed once also sometime didn't see or aware of this. It amazed me when a person whom saw the changes and somehow it make you feels good or elated in the same time. weird huh?
Time have grew me i guess, this week have given me many perceptive in many way..from friendship, family, relationship and work environment. Some how i sense many things are changing, as if they care how a person will feel?

One thing for sure,
Human will always remember the wrong doing or word hurt their emotion, then came a long the white lie that tries to cover the track which i simply not agree at all. Either way, somehow people does not care anymore as it should be back in old day, more into what's in for them or self important compare to what i can contributes to my company and etc. Another thing that people always hear is the gossip... wth** i guess this person have free times to that....compared to some people.

The sad thing is you only notice someone changing, but have you ever thought that you had changed as well.. more emotionless transmit to air we breath, to whom we spoke too, to object that we desire and to the person that we care..More movie try to convey all this but i guess its useless somehow as the human or people that watch can't translate the message behind the movie...

As i mention on the previous post, assumption can kill. To me from a existing friendship nor feeling.. i do think words plays the major roles, if we miss used it the consequences will be disaster.. Many words of good advice or words that comfort me lead me to this "if that thing had been signed by al-mighty for me,  whether sooner or later with the greatness Insyaallah it will be mine," i believe in this.. esp with the bless of our parents and the loved ones.. As tomorrow, remark a new beginning for step's in the future..

As for ma heart, i will learn to be more stronger and will be a better person as i mention in ma dream post
Amin..


tiada sapa yang lebih tahu, 
hanya aku yang lebih tahu,
untuk aku ini hanya harapanku,
pada kamu itu hanya omonganku,
aku hanya pandangan sepi buatmu,
mainan kamu dalam duniawi,
hati yang pedih kamu pandang sepi,
dibawa lari sepi yang menanti,
hati-hati nanti ia membawa diri,
dari mengharap kasih yang tidak bertepi,
hanya yang pasti tuhan lebih mengetahui....


"hey this is ma 2 cents"...atau coretan ku

Sunday, April 11, 2010

29#...Impian saya

Tagged by Hanin

I'm a dreamer and always push ma self to achieve the best especially for future. There some dream just not meant for me, that part i have Redha, Life have to go on and i will continue my journey..Insyallah, with the hard work, with the twist of doa and many love i received ...May ma wish will come TRUE. Amin...

5 Impian saya 3-5 tahun dari sekarang,
  • I want to have my own kid (kawen pun belum da berangan nak budak)** xpe..this is my dream

  • I hope that i have step up to a higher level in career wise, more mature**, more secure financially,  better ride (wah!), of course this also include ma mon petite as well, and etc

  • I want to have my own Mi Casa (Rumah Sendiri) ;))

  • I want to perform Umrah *Insyallah

  • A professional DSLR Camera and professional Class hehehe*

5 Impian saya untuk tahun ini..
  • A great escapade vacation with the sound of click! click! ~~

  • Improve ma cooking skill now me more to eastern hope more skill yang boleh di kidnap dari mommy saya* esp her rendang and her sambal ikan bilis yum!yum!

  • To be more patient this year compared before, the best daughter for my famile , the best girlfren @ future wifey for ma mon petite ami, good and quality worker and a good FRIEND..

  • Have more contact for Automotive Industries and more knowledge about car, in the same time i want to go to all motorsport event **hehehee gilos

  • I want to go to LIVE concert this year...and a another dream that Mon Petite knows about it. Insyallah... 
I want to tag
  • sha and fahmee
  • to whom that read my blog as well you're welcome.

Friday, April 9, 2010

#28... Life

As the time show its 8.03pm im still in the office, somehow i know its not right but ton's of works need to be done. This two week, its a mess...totally. With the new management is in, many thing's need to resolved. Now i realized how hard to be in this position, hey *somehow ma title* does not represent what i do or ma task here in the company.

This two week among the highlight that i can share is

- realized been appreciated

- somehow truth is better  unspoken

- assumption can kill you

- realized who i am now...mature i guess*

- training (non stop) haiya -__-**

- meeting to set sop

- new task and responsibility

As ma petite always say's to me I'm too good or Malay say's Baik x bertempat..(which somehow i don't realized) ,which can lead people just take the advantages nor step on me. This is the truth..i don't know if you read this but i always been there when u need me the most, (not to mengungkit) but you always give this remarks to me somehow its a joke to you but deep down i truly hurt. As i accepted you as who you are this what i get ( It make me realized whom i am to you), and being smarter you shouldn't do that! why you don't contact me? yes, i got plans...so what? just don't make any assumption its really hits me and all the accusation that you throw make me really piss. I do hope you do look back and think back what had been done, from there you will realized. That is ma DOA to you.

If im the bad bitch now, i should do something that i always do before but....i don't because i know who you are and in my heart you're some one that i called friend. Hey! by this time i think you wouldn't call me that *huhuhu*... let time will tell then.

To me now all this happen its from GOD willing, this is my two cent's i guess.
Thank you for the support and word! i feel LOVED! Muahx...

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

...27# Alhamdulillah

I'm elated,happy, mixed feeling! in the same time ...g bersyukur sangat. just about i given up for this thing..Al-mighty had send me an Angel. A small and cute one! Thank you its only word that i have to present to you.
From bottom of my heart Thank you again.. <3



Thursday, April 1, 2010

26# . . . you been missed

First of all,
i want to say that I'm sorry..
sorry if you feel I'm no good to you
sorry if you that I'm neglecting you...

But one thing for sure that i want you to know is I love you!

Tonight and many other night,
I realized that I'm lost in another world again,
world there is no longer you in.

No more late nite chit chat
No more late dinner
No more partner beside me
No more smelly feet **sigh**
No more huggie when I'm down..

Ma heart try to ignore the emotional roller coaster played all day long
but the more i ignore the more closer you are to me..Only a month since you been gone...i still missed you.... 

P.s: I just watch "How to Train Your Dragon" make me more missing you ;..(



25# ...If part 2,Expression


If there is a thousand would you understand what i feel and care enough to go thru with me.As the words start to ponder i realized many thing happen past few week, less word nor expression coming from the soul.If there a huge a secret, would you want to share it with me? Honestly, i doubt it because the world become to selfish and hypocrite as in many hidden agenda standing behind it.As many true nor story only been told, to me it had grow me and hurt me in the same time.Strange how emotion can adapt with it surrounding now. ....*small voice whisper, calm heart calm*

I don't think people surrounding or the environment will realized this as well because they seem too busy with they own life.It did hurt me when i try to give my best it seem it never been care, not even one word to say how much the person appreciate it..truly its life. Stranger nor unknown people came from no where realized all of the changes and care enough to spare their time to ask. Honestly I'm tired all this game or unfair trail, would it be easy when you get you deserve.In my world none of that is existed. As ordinary it should be it always back fire me and those harsh word will accompany me to sleep. May be its time to let the faith give the answer as for this time i couldn't see it.

As for now, I'm in empty picture frame that yet to be determine..